In the midst of a rainy morning, a rainbow appeared across the cloudy sky during our usual Saturday errands. No matter how I angled the camera, the rainbow hovered over a muddy construction site. At least from our view. Ideally, the mud, the puddles of water, and the machinery would be cropped, but the more I looked at the photo, the more they grew on me. If nothing else, the chaos on the ground makes me appreciate the rainbow even more. It’s beautiful, isn’t it? Reminds me of life. It’s never perfect, but there’s always a reason to be grateful.
Now, back to the topic, #CheckYourHeart.
First, let me say I had NO INTENTIONS on writing about this, EVER!!
But since I’m dealing with it at this moment and have had to check my heart, I thought I’d give it a go. I pray this helps whoever needs it. So, here it goes. 🙂
There’s a situation in my life that is very difficult, and I have absolutely no control over it. My natural problem-solving abilities are no match and walking away is not an option. Believe me, I’ve tried. I’ve done nothing to cause this situation except be born, of course, I had no control over that either. LOL This week, I began to feel a bit stressed as I researched, made phone calls, and read stories of other people who are dealing with the same behemoth.
As I thought about the past effort I made to avoid this very situation, anger tried to rear its ugly head. Who am I trying to fool? I got pissed. If the word “pissed” offends you, I’m not sorry, I’m just keeping it real. I said it to God, and I also told Him how much this situation SUCKS!!! But I’ll get back to that in a minute.
I spent a couple of hours trying to figure out a plan. The more I tried, the angrier I became. Every person I spoke to on the phone transferred me to their colleagues in different departments. They all said the same thing which was equivalent to NOTHING. The stories of people in similar situations wrote the same thing, there’s no help for us. Unfortunately, I started to agree with them after all, I hadn’t gotten any closer to a resolution than they did. And that’s when I said, “THIS SUCKS!!!!” Because it does!!!
Then I realized that once again my deeply-rooted, independent, problem-solving self needed to check my heart. Why? Because it’s out of my hands and I have to trust God instead of getting angry and stressed out. I decided to stop making phone calls, close my laptop, and worship the Lord. He’s done so much already, and He’ll Do It Again. I love that song by Elevation Worship. Click the link to listen.
I have no idea how this situation will turn out. However, I do know Jesus is with me every step of the way, and even my most significant challenges are no match for Him. If I depend on Him, I’ll have peace. If I rely on myself, well, I won’t. LOL Two Bible verses came to mind while writing this.
2 My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; 3 Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. (James 1:2,3)
5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. (Hebrews 13)
That’s it for now. Short and vague. LOL I look forward to your comments. 🙂
If you find yourself stressed or angry about a tough situation, #CheckYourHeart. He’s got you. Trust Him. I’m not exempt. I’m just . . .
Blogging it out!